Life Musings

Reflections of a single woman on her journey through life.

Category: Marriage

First Anniversary

This morning it dawned on me… one year ago today my divorce was finalized.  So, I’ve officially been legally single for an entire year. In that time, I’ve traded my car (co-owned with my ex-husband) for my truck, I bought a motorcycle (getting myself back on two-wheels again), and most recently, I purchased a dirt bike.  I’ve also faced my greatest demon, made a new group of friends, let go […]

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And So It Begins…

Girls Getaway Weekend

The travel season is starting… my life is slowly becoming consumed by nothing but work.  It’s like going from 0 to 60 mph in 5 seconds.  There is no adjustment period… it just starts and doesn’t slow down for the next 8 months.  Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my job!!  But, it’s definitely an extremely high-stress job for 8 months out of the year.  For the last 3 […]

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Covering the Spectrum

It appears I will need to change my category “nephew” to “nephews”.  🙂  Sometime in late January 2013, I will become an auntie again to another little bundle of joy!!!  I’m so ecstatic for my sister and praying this pregnancy goes smoothly given that she’s had two miscarriages since December.  So far so good… no major issues, though a few minor ones that should work themselves out. On Labor Day, […]

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Sometimes You Just Need a Good Cry

Especially when there are no plates around to smash instead.  (I’ve heard that actually does help, though have not tried said technique.)  Things have been… stressful to say the least over the last few weeks.  I’m not sure if it’s my depression… which would mean it’s time to up my anti-depressants… or just being away from my sweetheart and going through a divorce while trying to financially stay above water […]

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All I Ask

This is my valiant effort to post more often and get back into this site.  It’s not for lack of things to discuss; it is simply that my life has become such a spiral of good vs. bad… and the bad appears to keep winning.  I’m fiercely battling the emotions in my mind over my divorce… and how difficult it is to see him moving on (and seemingly doing well) […]

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Marriage vs. Divorce

Why is it that marriage and divorce are both equally as difficult?  Marriage takes work… I know that… I did that… I tried and tried again at that.  But, while divorce doesn’t necessarily take “work”, it seems to be just as emotionally consuming… in the opposite direction. I come from a long line of failed marriage.  Great-grandparents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc.  Fortunately, the trend seemed to stop with my parents.  […]

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It’s Over

Everyone told me that while they supported me for wanting to work things out with my husband, I would know if it wasn’t going to work. I now know. After stopping by my old house yesterday to pick up an item I had forgotten… I tried calling from outside the house only to have him send me straight to voicemail.  This irritated me and I knocked.  He answered and was […]

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It’s None Of My Business

I did everything I could in the days following my husband’s homecoming to show him how much I do still love him and want to be with him.  For all of it… this is what I got in response: Him:  “I have some things I need to figure out by myself before I can decide if I want a relationship.” Me:  “So, you’re not even willing to get to know […]

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Not Exactly A Warm Reception

Hubby came home last night.  It wasn’t quite the reunion I had hoped for.  He didn’t even so much as smile when he saw me… and I cried… it hurt so much to get a cold hug and a “hey, what’s up?”  I asked if I could go back to the house (our old house) for a bit and his response was, “I don’t care.”  So, I did… and after […]

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